yeah, i think it could all be chalked up to hyploglycemia.
hypolgycemia may cause anxiety, depression, and general malaise. definitely felt all those things. bought a sandwich, and felt totally like myself about 20 minutes later.
thank physics, i feel SO much better.
and the passing of time is again revered for it’s awesome power.
are we all grasping greedily for vague satisfactions?
is my perception futilely limited?
HOW THE FUCK MUCH CAN I NOT SEE?
HOW THE FUCK MUCH IS MY VIEW TAINTED WITH PESSIMISM OR LEARNED HELPLESSNESS OR whatever?
ah. thinking too much. feeling too inferior. feeling too hindered. feeling like there is a mountain quaking just beneath my faculty of analysis and relation. feeling like i NEED ALL THAT SHIT TRAPPED INSIDE OF ME TO COME OUT NOW. i am starving for newness. i know there’s more inside of me that isn’t ready to be felt/realized/expressed/seen/known. when will it be ready?
Made myself some coffee in hopes that it would help me get started on my work. Instead, I was only reminded why I do not drink coffee. I only drank about half a cup, but I now have a terrible headache… Why is my body so sensitive to drugs?
- Make Me Moan Mondays
- Twat Tickling Tuesdays
- Wet Dream Wednesdays
- Thumb-Fucking Thursdays
- Full-Frontal Fridays
- Sit on It Saturdays
- Someone Get Me Some Gatorade Sundays
Sometimes, when something strikes me as deeply ridiculous, I get really dizzy and my vision goes, just for a half a second. What a strange half second that is…
It also can happen when something somehow makes me deeply angry. When it happens that way, I feel the anger intensely, for just half a second, and then it disappears completely. Sometimes I wonder if this experience is my unconscious defense against extreme emotions having a “hiccup”.
i’m old enough to bleed, i’m old enough to breed, i’m old enough to crack a brick in your teeth while you sleep…
